[ Cheshire's losing it again, and he doesn't appear to be paying attention to Sanzo anymore. He's tugging at his head quills harshly, as if trying to rip them out. ]
That's how everything is! It's all a joke... A great big joke!! Better to just laugh and smile through it, right? No one really cares about you. They just want you to suffer and suffer and they don't care if you apologize and then when you do it's too late! Then they lie and promise things they don't mean and then you kill your friend by accident. Smiley, why didn't you run, Smiley? You were right all along, all this freaking time....
[ He lets out another shrill laugh. ]
So I don't care anymore, because they didn't care about me. I made a mistake, I did a bad thing and no one forgave me, so I don't care anymore. They told me I could make up for it but they were lying. They hate people like me.
You're just like them-- you give me something, pretend you're nice to me and then all you do is hurt me. You kept it away from me and mocked me and then hurt me more....
[ He shakes his head, trembling again. ]
If that dumb kid had just given me a fucking cigarette, none of this would have happened. It's all his fault. I wouldn't have bashed his head open, I wouldn't have gone to the asylum, I wouldn't be like this if it wasn't for that dumbass kid.
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[ Cheshire's losing it again, and he doesn't appear to be paying attention to Sanzo anymore. He's tugging at his head quills harshly, as if trying to rip them out. ]
That's how everything is! It's all a joke... A great big joke!! Better to just laugh and smile through it, right? No one really cares about you. They just want you to suffer and suffer and they don't care if you apologize and then when you do it's too late! Then they lie and promise things they don't mean and then you kill your friend by accident. Smiley, why didn't you run, Smiley? You were right all along, all this freaking time....
[ He lets out another shrill laugh. ]
So I don't care anymore, because they didn't care about me. I made a mistake, I did a bad thing and no one forgave me, so I don't care anymore. They told me I could make up for it but they were lying. They hate people like me.
You're just like them-- you give me something, pretend you're nice to me and then all you do is hurt me. You kept it away from me and mocked me and then hurt me more....
[ He shakes his head, trembling again. ]
If that dumb kid had just given me a fucking cigarette, none of this would have happened. It's all his fault. I wouldn't have bashed his head open, I wouldn't have gone to the asylum, I wouldn't be like this if it wasn't for that dumbass kid.