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Muse complaining

I am so glad no one seems to want to play on any of the memes you've posted me to. And if they don't know who I am, even better. Seriously, I've got three kids living with me already (yeah he includes Dee) I don't need you trying to get me into more trouble.

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[ Many complaints but Hibiki listens and concludes one thing; ] Are you feeling lonely?

No, not really. [He smiles some]. I just know my troublesome mun.

Oh. [ So it was just him hm. ] Prolly all muns are!

[ he laughs ] That's all they ever seem to do. Are you okay though?

Well, it does seem a common complaint, yes.

[A laugh as well]

Fine. As I said, no one seems to know me or "tag" me, so I don't have to be in a bad position.

[Mun, why is this a good idea to you? This guy's of the law, and Jaffar himself is the sort of person "cops" would gun down more often than not.

[This is definitely not a good idea, mun!]

...Three kids?

[He can only imagine caring for one. Three is beyond him.]

One adopted, one his girlfriend and the other my partner.

...I have one. Adopted.

[There's a very, very mild uplift to his own tone. But to most, it doesn't sound any different. Even so, hearing that he's not the only one who has a "kid" partner, it's kind of nice? (Oh if only he knew that Dee is just a giant manchild....)]

You too, huh? I adopted Bikky after his father was murdered. He's a handful and a half.

...Her birth parents were murdered when she was an infant. Then the one who adopted her after that wanted her dead. Thought her as a worthless child.

...I didn't let that go. It isn't... right.

[That was one of the first emotional feelings he's ever felt in his history or non-feeling, after all. So of course it's quite a strong sensation.]

...She seems happy with me, at least. Her name is Nino.

...I wouldn't have cared before, but she helped me when I was badly wounded, once. I didn't understand why.

[Ryo nods softly, smiling at Jaffar]

Does someone need a reason to help another human being?

And kids respond to someone who cares. They are happy when someone does.

...I don't know. My history tells that... I am not the ideal person to raise a child.

But she wants to remain by my side... so that must count for something.

[Okay, this emotion talk isn't so bad, and it's kind of helping him to comprehend some things. Normal people seem so soft to him, sometimes. And he's seen that in this softness, there is equal strength. It's confusing.]

...One of our comrades would certainly be better than I.

[You know, if the assassin cloak and the daggers at his hips don't say that he has a rather violent history on their own.]

[Ryo chuckles, apparently not bothered by Jaffar's getup]

I don't know as many people are ideal to raise children. Dee isn't, but he and Bikky get on well in their way, and the kids at the orphanage love him.

The biggest thing is knowing someone is there that will do their best to keep them safe, be there when they need them. Neither Bikky or Carol had the most above board fathers, but they were there.

[...Saying that he'd kill for Nino (and he has!) might not be the best option, he thinks. This person seems very... kind. And such brutal truths might not serve either of them well to be brought up.]

...

[...So maybe that's it. Because Nino knows that he'd protect her with his very life is why she stays? ...He knows she trusts him. She even willingly goes with him into battle and stays by his side.]

...Your words seem accurate. They seem to line up with what I've experienced, to a point.

[Ah, he's not used to talking so much. It kind of makes his throat hurt.]

...My name is Jaffar.

[He wouldn't at all be surprised by the admission. If Jaffar had known Dee, he'd be able to see why. But Ryo nods, holding out his hand]

Randy Maclean, though most call me Ryo. It's nice to meet you.

[Then a smile]

You don't seem very sure about what you're saying. Are you not used to people and their actions?

[If he ever runs into Dee, it might be interesting....]

...I am... not accustomed to having a will of my own. And I have never had a reason to say more than "yes" or "no". Talking this much... is new.

Nino... has helped, a great deal, but that is not her job.

[He's about ten years older than her, after all.]

I was brought up only to do the bidding of the man who raised me. I required no will of my own; I had none. So long as I did what was bid of me, I was praised.

I had no need to understand other peoples' actions beyond whether or not it would impair whatever duty I was assigned.

I see... [He frowns deeply] That isn't very much of a life... I'm glad you found something more to live for.

...

[His stoic expression has softened somewhat.]

...It is what it is.

The past, or the present?

...My past is irrevocably tied to the present. The person who raised me only wanted me to claim the lives of others for his own gain.

All that has changed is who I fight for and why.

My folly was that I never questioned it my whole life. And so, there are many people whose lives I have brought tragedy to.

I'd say that the past can be forgotten easily, but that isn't the case. Still, you can be a different man tomorrow, so I wouldn't worry about the past more than you have to.

I... cannot forget, and I would not want to. A man... must he not be able to face his mistakes? To remember them, in order to avoid repeating them?

He should, but also be able to live in the future.

I do not believe... that they are mutually exclusive.

However... if I must, I will own up to those crimes as I must, so long as no one harms Nino.

[AKA he's very willing to die if it means Nino is kept safe. Even if she won't forgive him for dying.]

I doubt your little girl wants you chronically thinking of it, though. But, maybe this is just who you are right now.

...For now, it cannot be helped.

I am someone who many people want dead, because of those who I have killed in cold blood. It is not something that most can simply attempt to put aside. Many want justice for the death of their loved ones and lieges.

...There is no easy answer for this.

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Muse complaining

H,hi FAKE looks interesting

It's a good series if you like plot-based shonen-ai/yaoi

Oh yes I do! I'll check it out when I have the time thanks xD

:)

Mmm, FAKE :D

Great series!

Yup! I have the series. I should read it again sometime.

I need to again, but I'm afraid Bikky might wake up lol

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