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Mundane,

I do not understand your fascination with my sexuality. I am an angel of the Lord, sex does not factor into my life nor will it ever do so. And even if it did your paring choices are strange....Sam I understand but Cain. I grow concerned for your mental state.

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Why? It has the air of forbidden fruit about it, such a pair. An angel of the lord, and he the father of murder? It must get more than just your mun titillated, I'm sure. And you should know the delight the forbidden brings. Isn't part of your religion built on the very concept?

Nor do I understand the... undue fascination which these 'muns' have with the discreet matters of their creative companions' lives, however one chooses to define life. You are not alone in having one's private life scrutinized and in having their name connected to personages with whom one has only shared the ties of friendship.

I um. I didn't know that angels had a sex, or, that is, I didn't know that angels had sex at all.

[yes, someone thought that they were like Metatron in the movie Dogma, rather like male barbie dolls]

We have the same plumbing as our vessels and what works for them...uh works for us.

[She wants to say 'that's good to know', but really? It's rather embarrassing. Angels can have sex? Really?? It's somewhere up there with finding out that your parents still have sex. And, medical background or no medical background, no one wants to think about their parents having sex.]

[Someone may be blushing. Her face is certainly warm enough for it.]

I see. Well it's ah, it's certainly something that you and your typist will have to work out then.

I have tried to speak to her about it. she is either unwilling to listen or she does not care. Is your mundane the same way?

How do you handle it as my discussions with my mundane seem to be going nowhere.

My typist is unwilling to listen to most things, and actually I think she likes throwing me into some of the most embarrassing situations possible. Correction, embarrassing and dangerous.

But as far as sex goes? I made promises, several of them actually, to my parents when I was younger. Promises that I wouldn't do ah, anything until I'd gotten my doctorate's degree. And most of my life I've been obsessed on simply achieving that. [She shrugs]

The one relationship I did get into, back when I was a med student? It lasted a while, but I wouldn't break my promises for him, and one day he was just gone. We probably weren't suited for each other anyhow, ~~seeing as he was a were-shark and all.~~

And now? I don't have any romantic or sexual interests, and I'm probably not going to have any, any time soon.

Can you imagine what would happen if I did? All that touching, all that skin-on-skin? What it would do as far as my uh, talents? I just don't know.

Eh, maybe I'm just lucky that way.

I suppose that I should add that I have had academics prying into the discreet parts of my life, and so it has become something of an annoying familiarity, but at least those sorts generally have a certain professional detachment. I would have thought this had hardened me, but finding someone prying into my private life and thinking of ...personages to 'pair' me off with is something that find myself unequipped to approach. Most times, I remind this 'mun' that I am generally a solitary man, though I appreciate finding companionship, and that seems to satisfy her for a time. But only for a time...

I was hoping for a more permanent solutions but I suppose gentle reminders will do for now. It does not help my case however when she points out that my body is now my own and that everything works.

This is the truth sad to say. My Father did not mean however for the fruit to be eaten and I like to think I am now allowed the same free will as the humans.

Yes, she seems to respond best to these reminders, but given comments from my 'headmates', as she designates the other dwellers of this place that she maintains, I may not be able to do this for long. One has threatened, rather noisily, that he will 'go silent' if she continues to come up with inane matches for him: that seemed to work, though I would not wish to stoop to such levels of conduct.

Don't all fathers wish for their children to be better than them? If your father created you and wants you to be less, well, he doesn't sound like much of a parent.

My brothers would agree with you. I do not. He meant us to love humanity more than he and I do.

Ah yes but my mun has a work around for that threat. She calls it "reviewing canon," and finds it a decent way of keeping us awake when we do not wish it.

A tall order, to love humanity, especially when, as you say, he does not care for it near so much as he should. Why should the burdens of the father be passed to the children?

She seems prone to that: she has been... making a study of my writings and grilling me as to what I meant by some aspects of them.

Also, she's found an account of my life, two thick volumes. How the author managed to accomplish that amazes me, since I've only lived for two score years.

That is impressive. My mun has found books that mention me as well but she does not like them since they spell my name wrong.

If he were here I do not doubt he would care but he is not and it makes things difficult.

So you are expected to carry on his work, or pick up the pieces of his mess?

It's one thing to have a good name, it's a better thing to have it spelled properly, isn't that so? I have had to endure the embarrassment of absurd wordplay made invoking my surname...

[Castiel winces in sympathy.]

I can see how that would be a problem for you.

[Cas chuckles.]

A bit of both actually.

And yet you speak of loyalty to him and doing as he has made you to do.

Quite the loyal son.

He is my Father. I was made to love both him and humanity. How can I do less.

Simply because you are "made" to do something does not mean you must do it. If he has abandoned you, why should you feel obligated to continue carrying on the obligations he placed so unfairly upon you?

It's a particular embarrassment when part of your name is a word that has... more meanings to it than you care to think of.

Really...what other means could your name have?

I have seen the other side...been human...I didn't like that much either.

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