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dear_mun2014-09-01 11:09 pm
romatomato) wrote in dear_mun2014-09-01 11:09 pm
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I know you're trying to make me feel better, you're too fucking nice after all even if you can get a bit weird sometimes but, I dunno. I just don't get how to talk to people, not that I want to or anything...
Fine, what the fuck ever, I admit it. I'm...just sorta lonely I guess, I'm trying to get better really I am, it's just I still feel kinda lost and empty. I've accepted the damn fact he's never coming back, I can deal with it now, I've even accepted the fucking fact that I'm probably never gonna see him again. I mean every damn time I've tried it's just been a fucking dead end and shit's turned out badly. I get it, we weren't meant to be. Yeah it hurts...he's been around for about five hundred years of my life more or less and...he's still important, but then again I guess it was inevitable. There's a lot of better people than me around.
Anyway I've given up and I'm just trying to live my life now and move on. At the same time I just can't, there's no one in that place I really wanna talk to all that much, 'least not right now, or that I got an easy time talking to...but..eh..I guess I don't wanna be alone either. I guess it's just I don't know where or who to turn to, it almost sorta feels like no one gives a fuck about me either, well I know you do but that's you. I think they're all sick of my moping and shit like that, they're sick of me cause I'm so damn depressing and stupid.
I know you're thinking of something too, of putting me in a group and I dunno, I know you're not too sure cause of a lotta reasons and...I just don't wanna get hurt again. It fucking sucks and I'm tired, fucking tired of being second place to everyone. It's probably too much to ask for but...I just wanna matter and be important to someone again I guess. I guess I'm still fucking spoiled after everything. huh?
Fine, what the fuck ever, I admit it. I'm...just sorta lonely I guess, I'm trying to get better really I am, it's just I still feel kinda lost and empty. I've accepted the damn fact he's never coming back, I can deal with it now, I've even accepted the fucking fact that I'm probably never gonna see him again. I mean every damn time I've tried it's just been a fucking dead end and shit's turned out badly. I get it, we weren't meant to be. Yeah it hurts...he's been around for about five hundred years of my life more or less and...he's still important, but then again I guess it was inevitable. There's a lot of better people than me around.
Anyway I've given up and I'm just trying to live my life now and move on. At the same time I just can't, there's no one in that place I really wanna talk to all that much, 'least not right now, or that I got an easy time talking to...but..eh..I guess I don't wanna be alone either. I guess it's just I don't know where or who to turn to, it almost sorta feels like no one gives a fuck about me either, well I know you do but that's you. I think they're all sick of my moping and shit like that, they're sick of me cause I'm so damn depressing and stupid.
I know you're thinking of something too, of putting me in a group and I dunno, I know you're not too sure cause of a lotta reasons and...I just don't wanna get hurt again. It fucking sucks and I'm tired, fucking tired of being second place to everyone. It's probably too much to ask for but...I just wanna matter and be important to someone again I guess. I guess I'm still fucking spoiled after everything. huh?