dear_mun | what do you mean x/1999 is old and nobody cares about it anymore

Why...would anyone laugh at you? [No really, he's genuinely a little confused.] I wouldn't.

Because people are jerks?

[this person looks exactly like the person the Sakurazukamori killed in Subaru's vision to Kamui, but definitely not a girl.

Wait. Is this Subaru as a kid?

Oh god.]

A-are you ... Sumeragi Subaru?

People can be quite cruel at times, yes, but-- [Oh wait he's about to ramble and this kid SURE DID just address him by name.]

Oh. O-oh! Yes, yes I am! I'm sorry, I didn't even introduce myself to you, did I. How rude of me! [Hasty apologetic bow.] I'm so sorry! I'm-- Er, well, you seem to know who I am already-- [How awkward.]

I...don't believe I've met you before, though? Forgive me if I'm wrong. [The idea seems to make him uneasy. He doesn't tend to forget a face.]

[Kid Subaru is nothing like Subaru as Kamui knows him. Knew him. Never actually knew him, to be honest.]

No, we haven't met.

[no Kamui isn't going to introduce himself without prompting. He's too busy being surprised.]

[And that is the sound of Subaru visibly relaxing oh thank god.]

Ah, okay! I'm glad! Er, not that we haven't met, but that I haven't forgotten you. I am glad to meet you now, er-- [After a moment of mentally groping for a name he realizes he never actually got one.] Oh, you haven't given me your name yet. S-sorry.

[No, the boy seems to be entirely too distracted by staring, Subaru realizes.] Um. I...suppose you must know me because of my family, then? I'm just a normal person, really. [It's a weak offering to try and reassure the kid that he's not really that remarkable, but on second thought how would he even recognize his face from just his family's name??]

[he just kind of goes on and on, doesn't he. For some reason Kamui had been certain they would be more alike, but that doesn't seem to be the case at all.]

No, I ... it's just that you look a lot like your sister. [yes, Kamui is so smooth, that almost sounds like it wasn't time travel or anything! perfect.] I'm Shirou Kamui. [bows]

Oh, you know nee-chan! [He laughs. OKAY THAT DOES MAKE SENSE.] Do you go to school with her, then...? Ah-- [Bowing wat? He waves his hands.] No no, it's okay, if you're a friend of Hokuto's then you don't need to be so formal...! I'm sure she'd tell you the same.

[oh god, if he's this trusting, no wonder the Sakurazukamori took him in so hard and fast. Wow.

No, get a hold of yourself Kamui, man up, seize the situation! Don't just stand there staring, Subaru is trying to have a conversation with you and for once it's not accompanied by sad smiles and/or cigarette smoke. This is a once in a lifetime opportunity! Maybe you could even change the course of history and prevent terrible things from happening! Right?

well maybe not, but Kamui's still going to hope.]

I-I'm not really friends with her. I only saw her once. [no no now you sound like a stalker shit] You ... told me about her? [explain yourself!]

We're going to meet in the future.

[Subaru blinks as Kamui shifts his story.] Oh. [beat] Okay. Why didn't you just say so in the first place? Did you think I wouldn't believe you...? [Oh, now the kid looks upset, sympathy gears into MAXIMUM OVERDRIVE.]

Hey, it's okay, I'm not mad. Now I have something to look forward to! [He smiles.] It's nice to meet you, Kamui-san.

[Seems like this isn't even that weird to him. Figures.] ... I really did recognize you because you look like your sister, though. You don't really look the same when I meet you.

I'm not that much to look forward to, but thank you.

[He laughs.] Figures I'd still look more like her while I haven't finished growing yet. [He's not too surprised, having been mistaken for a girl more than once and all, that is.] My face can't have changed that much though, could it?

Of course you are! You've already been so tolerant of my fumbling. [He rubs the back of his neck apologetically, giving a sheepish smile.]

Eh? No, of course you look more like her now than when you g-- [oh hi did Kamui's face just lose all its color? Yes it did.] ... I mean, your face is pretty different. You're also a lot taller. I guess I'm not too used to it any other way.

[speaking slowly] A lot happens to you between now and then as well ... although I wasn't there, so I don't have first-hand knowledge. But I can tell you if you want. Maybe it will help.

[Subaru senses Kamui's mood drop, though he doesn't really understand why. His brows arch sympathetically as the boy explains, and he tries to offer him an encouraging smile as he replies.]

It seems to have really distressed you... I'm sorry. However, I-- [How to explain? He gives an uncomfortable laugh.] I have certain abilities that would allow me to see into the future, if I wished. I'm not as skilled in them as my Grandmother, but I do have them. However, there are many different reasons to exercise caution when doing so, so it's something seldom done. I feel like the same sort of logic would apply, in this case...? For the less-arcane reasons at least.

[That was kind of wordy, wasn't it.] Basically, thank you for the offer, but whatever happens happens for a reason, and it's not really my place to choose to change it? I'll face whatever happens when it happens. [He offers an encouraging smile.] And I already know I get to meet you in the future, so I know I'll be fine! [The smile turns a bit rueful.] My life's never been of the easy sort, honestly.

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[he takes all this in silently. He's envious of Subaru's strength of character; or maybe not, since he doesn't think he would look into the future either.

He keeps from making a sound - a whimper, a scoff, a horrified laugh - at the last somehow.]

... I only offered because ... to not do so would have felt unkind. I agree with you, except for one thing.

Nothing happens 'for a reason'. It happens because of the choices people make. Fate isn't real; people just use it as something to blame for their troubles.

[He still looks sad, but that's being drowned out by determination, or maybe just anger.] Nobody has the right to hurt someone else just because 'it had to be that way.'

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[The force of Kamui's words surprise Subaru, and the sharpness of his tone is enough to cut. The pain is almost a physical one, as tangible as the sudden weight he feels pressing down on his shoulders, weight from Kamui's aura that speaks 'This boy has borne too much'.

The sensation leaves him breathless, and aching to ease Kamui's pain.]

Ah, perhaps you misunderstood what I meant... [He offers the response unsteadily, glancing away. He has no idea what Kamui's been through, but whatever it was, Subaru feels he has no right to contradict the boy on this matter. He swallows, and closes his eyes.]

I am sorry.

[He subsides. He recognizes this Subaru: sorry, regretful, sympathetic. But in a way, this Subaru is More So all those things. The Subaru Kamui knows is more like a muted version of this one, and infinitely more sorrowful.]

... I'm just really tired of seeing people get hurt and saying 'this is how it was meant to be', or ... or people hurting people and saying 'this is what you wanted' ...

That is not what I meant by my words, but I'm sorry you took them that way.

[Subaru glances up at Kamui, eyes full of sympathy.] Your life seems to have been very difficult. I wish there was something more I could say to help.

I shouldn't have. I know that's not how you meant it. [the words come out more harshly than he means them to, but he can't quite help it.

Kamui thought Subaru was kind. Nice. Too nice. Caring. Compared to this Subaru -

there's hardly a comparison at all. It's a fading candle next to a small sun. It's obvious at a glance that Subaru is practically feeling Kamui's pain with him and he hasn't even felt it yet.

So that's how wrecked Subaru is over everything that happened to him. Kamui didn't have the measure of it before. Now he knows.]

Don't worry. There's a lot you do for me later, so ... I'm sorry for troubling you. I should go.

[he turns to do just that.]

[There's a small relief in Subaru's expression.] I'm glad for that at least, but-- [And Kamui's abrupt turn to go startles the onmyouji.]

N-no, you didn't trouble me! It's no trouble--... Really it's not. You don't-- [--have to go? But it wasn't in Subaru's nature to stop him if he really wanted to.]

[yeah right he's not going to cry right in front of Subaru. Bad enough he wants to anyway. But he just stands there, turned away, for a long moment, and listens to Subaru tell him he's no trouble and he doesn't have to leave. The Subaru he knows would never do that.

He hates the Sakurazukamori with a passion that surprises him in intensity. The suddenness of his hatred burns the desire to cry away. He sucks in a breath.]

You're too nice to be real.

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Eh?

[There's no way Subaru could possibly guess Kamui's thoughts at the moment, so the observation is just...a little confusing.]

Do you think I'm lying? You've really been no trouble. Honest. [What did I say what did I say I must really have upset him but honestly what did I say...?]

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[Looks over his shoulder.] I know you're not lying. Nothing is too much trouble for you, is it?

[People in general make him anxious enough, but Kamui's seemingly erratic jumps are making it difficult for Subaru to latch on to the boy's feelings, and is becoming increasingly disarmed because of it. His words are halting and awkward, and he begins to idly tug on one of his gloves, his glance shifting.]

I wouldn't say that. Exactly. I mean some things are, of course. Everyone has troubles sometimes though. I just. People don't tend to be one of them. For me. Anyway.

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[He's so angry. He's not as angry as when he came back to Tokyo after his mother had died, but he's pretty close. He could probably destroy the Sakurazukamori with a glance right now, if he caught the man off-guard.

He can hear the tension in Subaru's voice start to increase.

He really should go. He can smile, and go. That's something he's capable of.]

You're really amazing, Subaru.

Goodbye.

[and he's roofhopping away to go blow up some innocent abandoned building, probably.]

[There's a pressure he feels from Kamui, an intensity of feeling that he can't even begin to comprehend. His assumption is that it's directed at him-- What else could it be? --but Kamui's last words don't seem to fit with that conclusion.]

I-I'm--

[The shaky protest starts as quickly as Kamui's compliment ended, but the boy was already gone. Subaru stares after him, stunned and legs quivering, one hand clasped to his chest with the other anxiously wrung around his wrist.

"Amazing"? Was he being sarcastic? Subaru had tried his best, but in the end he felt like he had misunderstood Kamui completely. Where had he gone wrong?

He swallows the growing lump in his throat, shifting his gaze to the ground, the only place he felt was worthy of it at the moment.]

--sorry.....

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what do you mean x/1999 is old and nobody cares about it anymore

This should be interesting.

welp, there goes Kamui's cool.

Oh excellent.

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goddamn it nappa ;A;

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