Because her mun's shuffle decided to troll her

[whitescalesbigmouth]

...Could you please stop listening to that song mun?

I don't want to think about what's going to happen between us, or whether or not I'll ever see him again after it happens. I'm not supposed to care about him at the moment anyway remember?

That doesn't mean that playing that song about making snowmen on repeat is going to make things any better either

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[imthe_shit]

Having boyfriend troubles?

[whitescalesbigmouth]

[Hah, she wishes. Nope, it's someone a little closer to home.]

...I don't have a boyfriend, you know that.

[imthe_shit]

Hhn.

[ Takes out a cigarette. ]

Had a falling out, huh?

[whitescalesbigmouth]

Mmhn.

[Let's not get into specifics.]

It's just easier if I keep to myself at the moment I think.

[imthe_shit]

If you really wanted to be alone, you wouldn't be talking on here... Unless you're one of those weird types.

[whitescalesbigmouth]

Well, we both know I'm not exactly what you'd call 'normal' am I?

[Sighs.] Besides, I was talking to my mun. She's kinda got me in a crazy place right now.

[imthe_shit]

You're more normal than most of the people I've met.

[ Shakes his head. ] Crazy place? [ ... oh. ] ...Yeah, I think I know what you're talking about.

[ GOOD JOB SNAKE, DON'T YOU FEEL SLIGHTLY UNCOMFORTABLE NOW. ]

[whitescalesbigmouth]

[Yeaaaaah....]

...

[Edging away ever so slowly. Just hide yourself away for a few days. It'll be fine. Pretend that everything's all okay with you.]

[imthe_shit]

... Saft.

[ Sighs. ] Look, we don't really have control over what's going n right now. If we did, do you think we'd be in this situation? [ Do you actually hate me? ]

[whitescalesbigmouth]

[Of course she doesn't. Everything just felt so much easier once someone gave her that high of being recognised as someone actually worth something you know?]

...I really wish it didn't come to this.

If I could stop myself from being such a damn moron then-

[imthe_shit]

Then what?

We're all damn idiots. That's how we learn. No one pops out into the world knowing everything... Being an idiot's not too bad as long as you learn from your mistakes. If you keep repeating them, then... That's when it starts to be a burden.

[whitescalesbigmouth]

I hate it...

Knowing who I'm going to hurt, Not just you but Otacon and Sunny too. I don't want to see this side of me.

[imthe_shit]

... We'll get through this. This is something you'll have to do on your own, but... I think you'll be able to do it.

You got yourself into it, now you have to get yourself out. [ He looks down. ] That side of you... Hates that I don't recognize you as being able to take care of yourself. That's not true. I just... Didn't want you to hurt like we do.

But this is me trusting you to get yourself out of this mess.

[whitescalesbigmouth]

Snake...

[Seriously, how could she have ever thought this guy was an absolute asshole who only cared about himself. He's not an enemy, he's her friend - a good friend. One of the best she's ever had.]

It won't be easy but...I promise I'll try.

[jack_theripper]

Saft, are you ok?

[He could tell that something was up. Even though he hadn't spent a lot of time aboard the Nomad, he had come to trust Saft and her friends. They had saved his life more than once.]

[whitescalesbigmouth]

...I'm trying to be.

[jack_theripper]

I'm not the kind of guy who likes to pry into people's lives but I do like trying to help my friends. You mentioned a "him." Is there a man in your life now?

[whitescalesbigmouth]

Wha-?

[Why the hell does everyone think she has a boyfriend?]

No! No Raiden...it's no-one. Just forget it.

[jack_theripper]

Sorry I asked. [He scratched the back of his head. Girls were sensitive about guys they liked, right? At least Rose could be sensitive over silly little things at times.]

Anything I can do to help?

[whitescalesbigmouth]

You're better just keeping out of this, Raiden.

[jack_theripper]

[He nodded. It wouldn't be right for him to pry into her business anyway.] Sure, ok. Snake isn't boring you stupid is he?

He used to like lecturing me on my shooting and technique back when I was on the Big Shell mission. [He loved it really, as Snake is Raiden's hero.]

[whitescalesbigmouth]

Oh...?

[She keeps forgetting that Raiden isn't really that much older than she is. So it was quite easy to relate to him once in a while.]

No, Snake's not boring...he's a good teacher, one of the best I've had infact.

[jack_theripper]

Yeah, he is. I don't mean it when I say he's boring. I was just young back then and didn't really take in what he was telling me. I thought I knew everything, when in fact, I knew nothing.

The Big Shell was my first real mission in my life and nothing prepared me for what I had to face. Snake really guided me in how to survive against all odds. He's a real tough guy is Snake. He's really been there and done it for real.

[imthe_shit]

[ He is an asshole, just not the kind that she thought. He's way more patient than he was when he was younger anyway. ]

You can do it.

[whitescalesbigmouth]

[She nods.]

Then I'll give it everything I've got and then some more.