I didn't know... I... it was my first time with Delta. I was... I was the rookie. You can't jeopardize the mission when it's your first goddamn one.
I couldn't tell him no. I wanted this. Needed it.
[It's such a small sounding admission. Lugo curls in on himself in the shadowy alcove, hugging his knees. A few moments to catch his breath and he's already starting to realize just how shaky his arguments are, just how alone he is, and how desperately he wants the company of someone who understands him, knows what he's been through. And considering just what he's dealing with right now, he realizes that this man is the closest thing he has.
He doesn't want to leave. Yet he hates the Radio Man. He killed the guy, for chrissakes. He still doesn't know the man's name.]
My name's John. Not a military man anymore. Not Delta. Nothing. All that's gone now. I've got jack shit.
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I couldn't tell him no. I wanted this. Needed it.
[It's such a small sounding admission. Lugo curls in on himself in the shadowy alcove, hugging his knees. A few moments to catch his breath and he's already starting to realize just how shaky his arguments are, just how alone he is, and how desperately he wants the company of someone who understands him, knows what he's been through. And considering just what he's dealing with right now, he realizes that this man is the closest thing he has.
He doesn't want to leave. Yet he hates the Radio Man. He killed the guy, for chrissakes. He still doesn't know the man's name.]
My name's John. Not a military man anymore. Not Delta. Nothing. All that's gone now. I've got jack shit.