Letting go of those...things that hold you back might be the best idea. I've been dead. I would know. Did he really fuck everything up? [ Jinxy just placed a hand on Josh's shoulder before shrugging and letting it drop away.]
Yeah, yeah. It's what everyone tells me, but it's easier said than done most of the time. I need to let things go, I need to forgive myself for what happened, cause everyone else already has. [Joshua cracks a smile at Steve's touch.]
I guess he didn't actually fuck it up. That one was all my damn impulse control.
I thought all those sexy lab coats and the off the walls science you were doing help you moved on. History is history Joshua, you cant forget it. You think I still don't look at Claudia and see my own sister? It's less but it's still there. You just need to..let go.
We all have our flaws. I don't look good in skinny jeans.
I don't know about move on, but it at least drowns it out some. Besides, off-the-wall science has always been a part of me. Why do you think I took up teleportation in the first place? I've been trying to let go, but... what's that line? How do you leave the past behind when it keeps finding ways to get to your heart?
[Joshua rolls his eyes]
Well, if you really want to know, I have terrible bedhead, and I wake up, as Claud likes to say, at the speed of snail.
I guess teleportation would save on plane flights. Trust me, I get that. Claudia saved me, she did but..it was hard to..cope with that. You don't leave the past you just sort of..take it in with you. Learn from it.
Yeah, she saved me too. I was fading away in that space. She does that for her family. And.... I just... I'm still trying to forgive myself for making her be in the situation to have to save me.
That's an interesting way to put it. Haven't actually thought of it that way. I think I get stuck in the science mindset of every person for themselves. I'm... I'm better than I was, but I still don't have it all right yet.
[Joshua blushes even more furiously]
Well, no! First, I don't lie much, and second, yes, I really do have that little confidence in myself.
They are special. And I never said I intended to strike him from my memory. It's like James; if you forget someone entirely, you lose the opportunity to learn from what they can teach you, for good or ill. That doesn't mean I have to be happy with the choices they made.
So they chose what you recall and what you forget? I understand that learning from your mistakes. It's sort of my whole deal but..Why bronze him. Couldn't you just..not make him caretaker?
We could have not made James an agent in the first place and saved everyone a good deal of heartache in the end. But there was no way to know that at the time. It's the same principle.
I can't. I'm better at seeing patterns than I used to be, but that's not the same thing.
And what would they have done then? Killed him? Someone with enough determination could have revived him. If I'd thought to step in on any bronzing decision it would have been Helena, but I didn't even know she was going to ask for that.
HG asked to be bronzed, that's not the same thing but I was more thinking about an artifact that could..wipe his status or something. Pass it on to someone else.
I wanted Helena to take care of me, though. She didn't need to be bronzed, she needed to heal. (I gave poor Irene a number of headaches on the topic for a couple decades. That and suddenly being cooped up in the middle of nowhere.)
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And when they betray me, I drop that claim.
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And we will protect you. He won't ever get to you.
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You should really turn your phone on more.
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I... didn't know you were trying to call. You could leave a message.
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"Hi, so we've never really seen much of each other but your sister is bronzed and turning to dust." Seemed better if Artie did it.
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Then again, Artie calling is honestly never fun either.
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So what? You're prefer my calming zen tone over him? I think you might have broken Artie's heart just then.
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Besides. Zen's always better than Artie.
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I'll take that as a compliment then. I'm glad you came through in the end, anyway.
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It is a compliment, I promise. Besides, I'd owe it to Claudia for my fuckups. I promised.
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She's a tough kid. I'm sure she's forgiven you.
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I guess he didn't actually fuck it up. That one was all my damn impulse control.
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We all have our flaws. I don't look good in skinny jeans.
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[Joshua rolls his eyes]
Well, if you really want to know, I have terrible bedhead, and I wake up, as Claud likes to say, at the speed of snail.
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[ Have a cheeky grin.]
That's adorable.
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[He blushes furiously]
I... don't really think I'm that adorable.
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[ Jinxy just laughs.]
And you're not lying.
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[Joshua blushes even more furiously]
Well, no! First, I don't lie much, and second, yes, I really do have that little confidence in myself.
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[ Which, is a plus.]
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I might shock him, though, if he pushes his luck. But that will be a last resort.
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How does it feel, exactly? Is it going to effect Claudia?
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Doing well.
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The only one I would choose to harm is the one who's already betrayed me.
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I thought they were..special.
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I wasn't part of the bronzing decision.
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You could have just zapped them and told them no.
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And what would they have done then? Killed him? Someone with enough determination could have revived him. If I'd thought to step in on any bronzing decision it would have been Helena, but I didn't even know she was going to ask for that.
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HG asked to be bronzed, that's not the same thing but I was more thinking about an artifact that could..wipe his status or something. Pass it on to someone else.
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I wanted Helena to take care of me, though. She didn't need to be bronzed, she needed to heal. (I gave poor Irene a number of headaches on the topic for a couple decades. That and suddenly being cooped up in the middle of nowhere.)